Going to be inactive for a while

Sorry, gonna be busy with studying for a while so I won't be able to think up of anything interesting but if something really interesting happened that it gives me a realisation or gives me an interesting story that could maybe relatable to your lives then I may make time for it but for now don't expect anything new till 3rd of June.

Good luck to you and to me. I'll be back

Realisation

After a day of doing nothing I came to a realisation. School is not the only way to success. I now see and accept that it is one of the main way to success but even this way is a hit or miss. You may get good grades and be successful in school but it doesn't guarantee you're going to be a success in the real world.

There are other ways to be successful, you can start small and build a business or slowly climb up through positions in the office through hard work. I'm not saying that you should ignore school and start looking for other ways, I'm saying that even if you fail or you don't  get the results you want, there are other ways of reaching what you want with life.

It now makes sense to me that life is not a forked road of success or failure. It will make much more sense to compare life with a road that has many turns and has no end, you can drive on this road endlessly and there is no success or failure but it does have a lot of places you can stop on. It really depends on where you stop. You can drive it uphill and stay midway without reaching the peak or you can drive it all the way up then down and continue if you're not content with what you found there.

In the end, you may or may not realise that you've had it good and now you're having a terrible time, then all you do is move on, no matter how tired or in pain you are and if you die, remember all you've achieved. It's not for nothing after all life is about self satisfaction. If you look back and feel satisfied, you did good. No one else can say otherwise.

Wow... These words are so pretty and covered with naivety, clearly I haven't experienced the real world but for now, this is what I believe and I will stand by it.

Our sheep is out there somewhere, you just have to keep going.

Swimming

As the title says I went swimming. I love swimming but not in rivers or lakes or the ocean, things happen in those places. Living things live there!!! They swim or crawl or float and when it swims past you you're like "NOPE! NOPE! NOPE! Done with this!" but in swimming pools you're relaxed and you can see the bottom. The only downside is the people.

The swimming pool had these giant body boards and I got to ride a shark shaped one, it was hard to get the hang of it at first but after a few tries, yaaay I'm sitting on a 2D shark on water!! There was a slide which was disappointingly short but it was still fun.

The other downside when I go swimming is I have to take my glassed off which leaves me half blind for long periods of time!

After swimming, things went wrong! The car keys ran out of batteries and couldn' t open the door until eventually the door finally opened manually but the car thought it was being stolen so it decided to do what it should, which was to mess with its mobiliser which prevents it from starting without help.

I'm back first as I rode with a friend but other members of the family decided to be left behind, mom will stay a bit longer for recovery to arrive and my sister and brother rode with another friend's car.

What is it with me getting stuck in places. I'm not even sure if it's part of my search for my sheep but you know things happen for a reason, because of this I ended up with pizza, still tired from swimming though. Good luck finding your own sheeps and I hope you're prepared with what happens to your search as surprising things will happen.

Trip to the dentist's

I had a dental appointment today so I had to go to the city again for the third time in one week! Not only that but I couldn't go home early because Park and Ride changed prices on peak times and I bought a ticket off peak so of I want to go home at peak time I have to get another ticket that's more expensive!!! Ridiculous!!! I am still tired from my long walks for the past few days, so not only was I tired, I was also irritable. The slightest little thing could set me off. The fact that a quarter of my face is numb due to anaesthetic I was also extremely hungry as I missed lunch and I couldn't eat until the anaesthetic wears off, which did not help my irritability!
After all that, I got to sit awhile in the mall and eat something.... Finally!!

Today was a really bad day. But I guess that happens to everyone. You can't find your sheep without ending up in rough areas. So if at any point in your search for your sheep and haven't come across rough areas, you're doing it wrong!

Laser tag and city day

For Elli's and Maddy's birthday today they decided to go laser tagging. It was my first time and it was very fun. I beat my assassination target, woo!!! It was dark in there and hot.

Before that though I walked to the city with my friends and played the old piano in Aladdin's Cave. Still the same shop, full of old people and old stuff. Some may be cursed or am I just watching too much Supernatural?

I didn't think at all that I'd be painting an elephant today. We finished the day with pizza by the side of a river... Today was fun.

My sheep is out there. I know it.

Lost... In DFS

What is wrong with me?!?! Leave me alone outside and I can find my way home but put me indoors and I'd lose my way. I walked into DFS and guess what it's full of sofas (brilliant work,Sherlock Momes!) I thought the place was huge... Turns out I'm walking in awkward circles. The sofas are pretty damn comfortable and there's this huge swivel chair and I can just sleep in it.... So cozy and it swivels!!! BEST CHAIR EVER!!!!!!
On this chair I feel like a commander! Commander Sherlock Momes of the 58th couch potato division! Who knew sofas could make a man so happy.

Walked along Yarmouth beach, picked up some beach glass, and walked on more dunes... Embryo dunes... Saw some horses and dogs... Still want a dog. This second half of the post is full of ellipses... Can't get enough of them!!

I want this chair, I hope we buy it, my sheep would be so happy... When I find it.

Do you want to build a snowman?

Yup that's right, it's time for a Frozen related post. But not in the way you'd expect. If you liked the other sing along posted earlier you might like this one and as the title suggests we're going to do it to the tune of "Do you want to build a snowman?"
Ready? Here we go.

Do you want to kill a cowboy?
Come on let's get one now.
I never see you anymore, get out of there
It's like you're dead inside
We used to have fun together and now we don't
I wish you'd come back now...
Do you want to kill a cowboy?
Doesn't have to be cowboy...

(Not today, buddy)
Pffffft....

Do you want to kill an old man?
Or ride giraffes around the halls?
I think your period's overdue,
I see your panicked boyfriend on the phone.
It gets a little boring,
Riding all those goats
Just having fun on my own...
(clip clop clip clop)

Meh... That's done, too lazy to think of the rest.

They say filling your time with hobbies helps you find your sheep, and I'm trying out several things though exams are right around the corner... My sheep is out there somewhere and I will find it.

Job searching

I don't know why I started looking for a part time job when there's exams coming up next month. It should be my only focus but, somehow this feels right. I don't know if I'm going to get accepted, it would be cool if I did. Maybe this will help me get my focus right if I didn't get accepted.

I applied for KFC and Virgin Active, hopefully one of them will give me a chance and I could earn some money for myself to get some things I want and need such as a bike or enough money to enjoy trips as £25 a month doesn't really go as far as you want these days. I have to divide that up for some school lunches or birthday gifts and days out to the city with friends and that includes buying food.

Well as far as job searches goes, it is one of the ways people look for their sheep.

Much to blog about nothing

Just as the title says I have nothing interesting to blog about today. I had conflicting feelings when I was out for a walk but that's just me. I walked with people but didn't make much conversation due to said feelings, though I don't know what's the cause.

I went to Jasstopher's just because and watched a video of my little pony about wubs and a wub cannon. She also showed me the episode of RWBY and there is such a thing as battle skirts...

I really have no idea what to do with my life... Well, I do but I have nothing to fall back on. Probably because I haven't lived long enough to actually build something of mine. I guess that's true for everyone my age. So much is expected of us, they want us to have jobs straight after education and our education is expensive that a lot are being put off by it. So we end up giving up and settling for something else. We need experience to get jobs but we need jobs to get experience, we say that as an excuse because what we're really afraid of is going out into the world because we expect to find nothing for us and exploring the world can't really be done without money, which leaves us feeling trapped making us settle for what's here even if we don't like it.

This is why we look for our sheep the best we can so we can feel content on what we can and can't do and have.

Nightmares and Daydreams

I've been posting awkward and slightly depressing things. So with this post let's mix it up a bit. Everyone know the tune to My Favourite Things? Good! Let's have a sing along.

Demons and angels and back stabbing lovers,
People and faces and creeping weird ninjas,
These are the features of my nightmares and dreams.

These are the features of my nightmares and dreams.

When I'm napping!
When I'm sleeping!
When I'm feeling tired...

I go to the place of my nightmares and dreams, and then I can't feel most things!!!

Hmm... Looking back on the lyrics, it seems depressing but, hey, it has a happy tune. So I guess that's fine.

Sudden realisation (dream edition)

I just had one of the best dreams I can remember since forever. I know you say the best every time that's because it beat all your other past dreams or whatever you said was the best. So this morning I woke up feeling really happy because of what happened in the dream, it really felt like it happened, I felt everything from my dream in my waking body. You may be sceptical that that event is possible but I know what I felt. I was really happy, but then after a few seconds of being high, I realised I'm on my bed and none of it ever happened and is very unlikely to happen in real life and it felt like life kicked you really hard when you're down. I was all like "I can't wait to get out of bed" but as soon as I thought that... It was the most depressing thing. WORST "METAPHORICAL" DRUG EVER!!! You get really high and happy for less than 5 seconds and you'll have the worst low that will last pretty much the whole day. So my advice don't do a mixture of good dreams and life at the same time... Worst combo ever!!

I really felt like I found my sheep but turns out it was a lie. Time to go looking again.

Euphonium practice day 3

It's been 3 days since I got a euphonium and I'm still getting used to the huge change in mouthpiece from a small trumpet mouthpiece to a significantly larger euphonium mouth piece, also I find that this instrument needs a lot more air and I'm having a bit of a problem with that... But with practice I'll get better.

Here's "Part of your world" and "Someone's waiting for you". If you don't know where they're from you need to have your childhood re-evaluated.

The notes are a bit dirty so forgive me but like I said it's been 3 days and I'm still getting used to the changes.

Part of your world (maybe I forgot and I didn't make a title)

Someone's waiting for you

A date with myself

I was just looking for a couple of screws and ended up in the city! I walked around wensum park as well just because and dogs kept following me... They were so adorable... I really want one!

A man approached me when I was in Anglia Square and asked if I had any money to spare... He said he was starving and nowhere to stay so I did what any decent person would do and gave him some money, though I was only carrying £2.50 with me and I gave him £1.10 so I didn't have enough to buy screws anymore but that didn't matter though looking back on it he was a bit twitchy and asked others for money so I was wondering if I didn't give him enough and I thought that I just gave him some money for which made me feel really bad... I hope he bought himself food rather than the other thing. This is one of the things I'm afraid of happening to me, I don't want to end up homeless... Though I guess nobody wants to - I really hope he's alright and found someone who could help more than I did... If I end up having a good life in the future I wouldn't mind helping them out from time to time when I can... I mean it's not their fault the world is a cruel place to be in.

This is one of the things that drives me to do better and it also stresses me out at the same time, it makes me feel that if I slip up or even ease up a little I would end up that way and I would have nowhere to go.

I feel nowhere near of finding my sheep today...

Treasure hunt and Sleepless (not really) in Norwich

In this dream I randomly took a school bus that led me to an familiar shopping complex. Here I met Tom, dressed in business suit. We walked around for a time chatting about something I can't remember. After that I saw a couple more of my friends sitting by a fountain and this is where Tom had to go to a business meeting. It took me a while but eventually I walked.over to the fountain to find that my geography class plus Elli, Reid and Jessie was there as well. They led me to a swimming resort where we spent the afternoon playing around... There was even a musical number though I can't remember the lyrics. In the evening we went to this place similar to the one I had a dream about before (ooh I can bring other locations from my old dream to a new one). In this place we did the same thing I did before a treasure hunt where we have to shine a light on these stones and they become the keystones we need to unlock each of the treasures around while fighting off monks, Chinese martial artists and possessed people ( really strange, well, not really, they aren't really out of place if you consider that the location of the dream is at a giant Chinese garden... Think of Mulan's garden but bigger.) we were down to the last keystone and even though I know ending, it is such a shame that I didn't see what it would be like to finish the treasure hunt with my friends than on my own. That was the part where I woke up...

Which leads me to this next rant. Ever since the Christmas holidays I haven't been sleeping longer than 7 to 8 hours at night and I don't blame my napping as I used to nap and I can sleep through to the afternoon... So I don't know what's wrong!! Now when it gets to around 6:57 my body is like "wake up you little shit!!" I try to go back to sleep but my alarm goes off at 7... At least it's not as bad as late January to February where I wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to bed.after an hour or 2 which really makes made me frustrated!! I love my sleep... One of the few things that keeps me from having a breakdown.

Well that's the end of this post and I am still looking for my sheep.

Dream, Events, and Euphonium

I got woken up by my dream. It was so strange. Basically, I was walking and running inside an empty mall and it was very dark with some purple ambient lighting, I then saw one of my friends going up an escalator so I followed him and led me to a circus a tent. The attendant was of course a clown but he felt evil!!! Evil I say!! He pushed me into the tent which was bigger on the inside. It was like a fun house... If a dark room with clown faces and mirrors are fun, then yeah, a fun house. I saw the reflection of my friend and ran towards it which eventually led me to a hallway where he raced me to the end of the room. I ran and ran but I couldn't keep up but my friend was like a performer running on tight ropes above and using the trapeez and that's about it... Something fell and I woke up.

Today is the final day of term, yaaay,but it also means the exams are near! Psychology was fun sitting to one side looking sexy while the others give out the presentation. Then I had a test in Biologu and then again at Chemistry but I also got a euphonium!!!

The euphonium is a lot heavier than the trumpet and I find it much difficult to play properly and I haven't been playing for more than 10 minutes and my lips were already swollen as if I've been playing on the trumpet for an hour straight on high notes. It is fun to play though  , I just have to be careful or I might end up with fat lips and nobody wants that.

So this is it... Time for my nap and hopefully I can find my sheep this way.

Everything else is a distraction

The exams are coming closer and closer.... I really am afraid. I need to get good grades A or B, C is acceptable but nothing lower... There is so much going through my head and I can't tell anyone, I'm writing it vaguely on this blog as people say "oh, writing down your problems will help you." but honestly, there is nothing I can do about this, the only way about it is to sacrifice a very important relationship and I will not do that. I won't ever let it go, so my answer to this problem is ignore it the best I can but it's proving to be difficult... So I'll just push on and keep doing what I do... It's the best course of action to take. Ignore your personal problems and think of the future, once you're comfortable with the present and things are going the way you want, that is when you stop and think about solving your personal problems though it may be too late and the problem solved itself... This generally leads to a bad ending. Now I'm just babbling.

Exams.... Revise.... That should be my priority right now, everything else is a distraction.

Hopefully I will find my sheep this way...

Pizza and GC

Well... Today was the final day of geography week. I thought it would be very very boring but I had fun throughout, too bad it wasn't in Wales like it was supposed to be but it was fun anyway. Our teachers were very "cute" as my classmates would describe them, they gave us easter eggs and paid for our ice cream in Winterton. Also we got pizza from pizza hut which made my day.... Too bad T.G. Missed out on most of the pizza and I felt really bad... I still do even though he was given at least a half of a box by one of the teachers. I should buy him some when I have spare money.

Yaaaay grand chase is back online with a new publisher....hopefully they give better events than the previous publisher.

Welcome

Well... this is it. Time to post about random things about, this should be better than my attempt at a creative writing blog, since this one has no clear goal I can just go on and on about everything, not that my life is exciting but this should be worth the read.... But first time to do a little bit of tweaking with the settings before I start.